You know, there are children in starving in India, and I want boots. Why? Why will I stay up all night long dreaming of floral tunics and scrunched wool socks that would go lovely with my dreamy boots? (Oh, and don’t forget the braided leather belt I scored at the thrift store in Florence-that will top it all off nicely.)
I’m not sure why.
I wish I was artsy; or maybe just gutsy enough to dress like those artsy-looking girls whose beautiful ensembles I stare at longingly on campus. They’re so hip, so attractive, so much better at expressing themselves.
But you know, I’ve always been t-shirt and jeans girl. I didn’t start wearing makeup til I graduated from high school. Wearing any color besides black, brown or blue was a big deal up until a year or so ago. But I’m not dull am I? Am I?
I want to buy old, ugly skirts and turn them into compliment-generating machines. I want to sew cute bags and make funky feather-laden accessories and find vintage Italian shoes that make me feel like a woman when I wear them. I want those gaga eyes that followed me when I walked down Florentine streets again.
I’m studying all of the time. I pretend like I’m all selfless and unmaterialistic. I'm going to be volunteering in India. I have little money and what resources and time I do have I feel like should be used for something besides a likely short-lived fashion obsession. But I just feel so empowered when I style my hair and wear something daring. So what gives?
How about this? It’s my birthday as of an hour and a half ago. Just buy me my dream boots so I don’t have to feel guilty when I do.
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